some changes

I wrote a blog post earlier but felt like it wasn't really what I wanted to say.

So the other day I hurt my back doing Insanity. I know that I probably was pushing myself too much on it but I really wanted to prove to myself that I could do it. I wanted to be able to go through this quickly but didn't think that I'd be sitting in my chair right now with a pillow behind my back and in pain. I mean, I'm sure not everyone thinks that this is where they were going to be 24 hours ago. I certainly didn't.

And then I went on a rant about how I'm done trying to do this. I don't honestly think that's what I wanted to say. But at the time, and in that much pain, it's what came out. Am I disappointed? Yes. Will I say that kind of thing again? Possibly. Am I going to give up? Definitely not. I have yet to really give up on everything. There have been so many setbacks this year with my running. First was an injury in my calf late last year. Then I had a cyst taken out of my back and couldn't run for 2 weeks because it was very difficult (sweat and blood don't really mix well, especially when they are oozing out of a hole in your back). Then it was the heat for 2 weeks. Now this. I didn't quit then. Why would I quit now?

In a way, this kind of relates to the rest of my life. I always seem to quit certain things in my life. I'm not trying to go all "Wahhhhh!" on here. It's just something that I have noticed over time. It's something I do want to fix. Just having a really hard time.

My back is feeling better. Unfortunately, it took me a few days to actually write this. Sitting in this chair is very uncomfortable. I'm getting there. Gotta go do some stretches now.