The Start of Something New

2013 is finally coming to a close. I'm actually quite happy that it's finally turning to 2014. I've honestly had enough of this year. After being fired back in March, the year just got worse and worse. Nothing really seemed to go my way. Especially on the job front. Granted, there were some awesome moments this year. Doing my first three half marathons was pretty freaking sweet. And my first Warrior Dash. My first team 5K, too. Going to California.

So there were some awesome things that happened this year. But I really feel that the negative outweighed the positive. There were so many times where I was just emotionally drained that I can honestly say that I wish I wasn't of this earth anymore. I can probably count the amount of times on one hand. Thinking that way is not something I have done in a long time. But this year...Something about this year just really took me to that level of thinking. I was not that happy with my life a lot of times. I hid it from a lot of people. Running seemed to be the only way I was able to vent and that, I felt, could only go so far. The thoughts still came. And I need to stop the thoughts more.

Flash forward. 2014.

I like years that are divisible by 2. It just kind of makes it feel like anything is possible. And I'm going to try my hardest to make this the best year possible.

I'm going to start with my running. I want to run every day, even if it's just a mile. Just being able to go 365 days with at least one mile ran will be a huge accomplishment for me. I'm really excited to start it first thing tomorrow with a five miler. And now that I have to change my training schedule for the last few days before Disney, I think it's a good time to get use to doing an extra three miles a week. I think it'll add up pretty damn quick.

Speaking of Disney. I want to have it be the most amazing race of my life. I'm really excited for this one more than the other six or seven that I have planned in 2014 so far. I wish I could go into more about this. But I can't. It's just so much to comprehend.

I want to write more. This will be the hardest thing to do since I always seem to forget.

I want to be a better Magic player. More in terms of I want to not take losing so seriously. I'd like to do well at some major event, though. That'd be pretty sweet.

I want to lose weight and gain muscle. I really feel that I'm going to have the most trouble with this. I honestly have no idea how to go about it. I have tried various things but I think I really need to do something that I can stick with week after week. Month after month. I have a few ideas and I think that doing a mile a day will help with this as well. I'm probably going to start after I get back from Disney, that way I can figure out some plan to do. I need all the help with this one. All the help. I'm going to try MyFitnessPal. Again.

Do more outdoor activities.

KEEP MY FUCKING JOB.

Be there for people more. I need to be more reliable and more dependable.

I think that this year can be the year. I just have to get better.