6/7/2013

Where do I begin with this?

That's the trouble I seem to be having lately. A lot of shit has been going through my mind and I honestly don't know where to start anything. It just is all over the place in my brain. Everything goes from one spectrum to the other. One day, I could be perfectly fine and not have a care in the world. The next I just start freaking out. Even as I write this, I am having a hard time focusing on what to actually write. This blog was suppose to help me with that and it just seems to delay the process of me finding some sort of "cure" to my madness.

I can't even think straight right now.

So much is going on has gone on in my life that I wish it would all just pack up and leave. On top of having a brain that wants to do so much and can never fulfill half of it really aggravates the fuck out of me. Running seems to be the only thing that really makes me feel sane. During and for a little while after I run, I'm at peace with everything. Nothing is wrong and nothing could ever be wrong. But then things start to sink in and I just start hating so much about me and crap I've done in my life.

But then there are amazing things that have happened. So many amazing things. I never want to lose those. I just wish I knew what to do with my life. What I really want to do. It's just so difficult.