This weekend

So starting today, I honestly have so much going on it's ridiculous.

Today I ran 10 miles for my half marathon training. I'm in "week eight" of my training and things are going very well. October will be here before I know it. I feel that I'm seriously prepared for this race. Been training since January and my times are getting better. I'm even keeping my long distance runs around the same mile per minute, which for me is fantastic. I'm very pleased with things so far.

Tomorrow I'm going down to Fairfield, CT to volunteer with the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society TNT at the Fairfield 5K. I'll be at the half mile/2.5 mile mark rooting on everyone. It should be a blast. :D I've never been a spectator at a race before so I think I'll have a great time.

Sunday is just bonkers nuts. I have a 3.5 mile trail run at 7:30am, which is only five minutes away from my house. Then I have church at 9:30am, a birthday party for my friend's son at 2:00pm and a softball game for my church at 5:15pm. Maybe I'll be able to fit in a nap. Doubtful. I'll probably be too excited for all the stuff I gotta do. So hopefully it goes by without a hitch.

There's also some other cool news that I don't really want to talk about right now but I think will be awesome if it does happen. :)

6/7/2013

Where do I begin with this?

That's the trouble I seem to be having lately. A lot of shit has been going through my mind and I honestly don't know where to start anything. It just is all over the place in my brain. Everything goes from one spectrum to the other. One day, I could be perfectly fine and not have a care in the world. The next I just start freaking out. Even as I write this, I am having a hard time focusing on what to actually write. This blog was suppose to help me with that and it just seems to delay the process of me finding some sort of "cure" to my madness.

I can't even think straight right now.

So much is going on has gone on in my life that I wish it would all just pack up and leave. On top of having a brain that wants to do so much and can never fulfill half of it really aggravates the fuck out of me. Running seems to be the only thing that really makes me feel sane. During and for a little while after I run, I'm at peace with everything. Nothing is wrong and nothing could ever be wrong. But then things start to sink in and I just start hating so much about me and crap I've done in my life.

But then there are amazing things that have happened. So many amazing things. I never want to lose those. I just wish I knew what to do with my life. What I really want to do. It's just so difficult.

New Shoes

On Monday, I went to a local running store in the Mystic Village to get a new pair of running shoes. The current pair I had, Brooks Glycerine, seemed to not be doing the job I was hoping. My two toes were (and still are) bruised under the toenail. I knew something had to give and I just bit the bullet bought a pair of Asics Kayano 19s. It was on the urging of a fellow runner to go with Asics. He swore by them and when I went to the running store, they told me that they probably would be my best bet for a new pair of shoes. Since my ankles are so bad, I need something that will help with that and give me the support I need in my foot and toes. I was told by the guy helping me to run on a treadmill the first time to see if that's what I really needed. If not, he'd help me with another one.

The problem that I have is that my feet are too big. My right foot measured at a size 12 and my left foot measured at a size 12.5. I didn't realize that my feet were so weird. But I guess they are. So the only option for me is to wear a size 13 so there is enough toe room in my shoe to not constantly bang on the front. After I got home on Monday, I had to prepare myself for the treadmill.

See, I really feel the treadmill is a tool made by the devil. There is no way any person would want to put someone through so much physical pain as to stay in one spot and run for a specific amount of time. Especially when I have to run on them on my 5 mile day. It's just agony. But! I made it through thanks to FX showing Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. It made 5 miles doable.

Today I ran with them on the road and absolutely loved them. I think I found my shoes.

June!

I like June. I never understood why but it always seems to be in my top 5 favorite months out of the year. January is number one, of course, cause of my birthday. It's then followed by December (Christmas), June, November (Thanksgiving) and Easter (since this changes all the time, I'm just leaving it down as the month itself). But June always confused me. Maybe it use to be because it was when school would be done for the summer and it would be time to have awesome times. But now, as an adult, it's just a great month. It's not too hot normally. This week has been the exception, however. Not getting into that.

Moving on.

No job yet. Don't even hear anything from anyone, either. That's the real annoyance. It'd be nice to at least get a "Sorry, we're not interested" email so I feel like my resume actually got there. Makes me really feel like I'm never going to actually find a new job. I apply to at least 5-8 jobs a week. Stuff that I know I can be successful at. It's tough not having knowledge in 90% of the jobs that are being posted. I just hope I get something soon.

My mom told me that everyone is getting furloughed at her work. She stays home one day a week for 11 weeks and loses a days pay each week. I guess that turns into one paycheck a year she will miss. Kind of sucky. Makes me hate the way our government works sometimes.

I guess the last bit of the heat wave ends today. I hope so. It's pool party day at my friends house. I'm excited! Poooooooool.